1. Agitation
2. Anxiety
3. Fatigue
4. Guilt
5. Impulsiveness
6. Irritability
7. Suicidal ideation
8. Panic
9. Paranoia
10. Pressured speech
11. Rage
Aside from
• Pressured Speech (rapid, loud and difficult-to-interrupt speech)
-- I don’t talk loud or fast (well maybe when Sherry and I are having
a ‘discussion’. During times such as these I find she understands
me better if I just ‘speak a little louder’) lol
• Paranoia
-- For some reason I’ve always just assumed everybody liked me – not
everybody, I guess, but that’s their problem
• Panic
-- Anxious? yes but panic? nah
I look at that list of eight horrible, terrible traits I know that was me. It’s hard to believe that was really me.
What I find puzzling is that most people in the ‘depression blog’ seem to be in pretty good spirits. Is it that blogging is therapeutic or are folks not really able to blog ‘unless’ their depression is under control?
I will continue to explore now that I can kind of (I hope forever) look at depression objectively.
Some of my posts on "If you're going through Hell, keep going." are pretty 'depressing' and angry. I think that bloggers suffering from depression know that being depressed in front of others is rather unpleasant so they try not to concentrate all their depression into a single post or multiple posts published within a short period of time.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry, how rude of me. My name is Michael, I'm 17 and I go to school and live in Hong Kong.
You have an interesting theme. I'd love to see what else you have to say in the future, especially now as it's holiday season, a supposed time of festivities and joy.
As I said, bloggers are generally nicer people online because after all, strangers from around the world are viewing their words. In front of people that know you, they know you are depressed. Here, we are meeting new people and you never know who might be reading. You don't want to create too much of a miserable impression... therefore the content of people's posts appear to be slightly more cheery.
Michael.
Hello! Thank you for visiting my blog and your kind comments.
ReplyDeleteI really admire you for posting about depression and how it's affected your life. Whether we share our thoughts with loved ones or total strangers, it's not easy ... it's like facing our demons head on ... and that takes bravery. I believe that your blog will help a lot of people ... both people suffering from depression and others who perhaps are family members and don't understand.
I hope you don't mind if I follow you and add you to by blog roll.
I'm so glad that you are able to look at depression objectively ... and my wish for you is that it will always be that way!
Wishing you all the best in 2009!
Small Footprints
http://reducefootprints.blogspot.com
Michael
ReplyDeletePLEASE don't think I am being condescending but your insights into human nature belie your age.
I see what you mean by us wanting to show our best face to strangers. That's probably it.
Does this answer go to you or do you have to check back to get it?
I'd like to discuss the four basic temperaments which were first postulated by Hippocrates around 400 BC but I'm not sure anyone would be interested.
I will answer promptly and to the best of my knowledge once I get the chance.
ReplyDeleteI don't understand what you mean by Does this answer go to you or do you have to check back to get it?
Are you asking me if this is the answer that works for me? What does the latter mean?
Michael.
I meant did you get it in your email or do you have to come back to my blog in order to read it?
ReplyDeleteI got it in my e-mail. If you need to do that, go to your [Dashboard], your blog's [Settings], [Comments], scroll right down to the bottom and insert your e-mail to get automatic e-mail notifications for all comments on that blog.
ReplyDeleteDiscuss the four temperaments. I have heard of them at school in English class. The table on the Wikipedia article is quite intriguing. It's worth a good post.
Michael.
thanks for checkin' out my blog...a new hobby for me i sopose.
ReplyDeleteyour blog is so focused on the perfect topic. so many people of all ages suffer through depression and that's it...they suffer...sometimes looking back and saying...hmmm...oh, right! that's what that was.
i look forward to following your blog as i do have family that is going through such. i am interested in knowing more about how medications treat depression or the symptoms; I learned that they are likely to be non-habit forming but am skeptical.
the family is beckoning me but i am off to read more of your blog before they pull me aways for now.
i may find my answers as i read =).
peace.
opportunist~at~large
ReplyDeleteRest assured. they are not habit forming for they are not of the "opiate family" What most of them do is increase the levels of serotonin in the brain. Aspirin can cure a headache but the brain does not find it habit forming.
Darrel
www.hopefordepression.blogspot.com